This post isn’t written pretty and I don’t mind. It’s just me. It’s real and I need to get it out. I need my kids to know that mom went through this. Especially when they start having babies. I want other women to know they aren’t the only ones.
It’s not easy. Going through postpartum anxiety and grief at the same time. I don’t know which one is which half the time.
It sucks. It’s that simple.
I don’t have all the answers on how to fix it, or even deal with it.
I know what helps me most of the time. Reading my bible, praying, Exercise, eating right, vitamins (regular but also added vitamins and supplements)…writing. Crying. < --- I'm not so good at that. I'm a stuffer. I stuff way down. I've always done it. I'm learning not to.
I've also been reading that low blood sugar can cause anxiety. I've always known that I need to eat every 2-3 hours or my blood sugar gets too low. Now I'll be making sure I have snacks with me at all times.
I know people think that because WonderBoy is 14 months, this postpartum anxiety shouldn't be happening. It is though. There is no timeframe for this stuff. Everyone is different. I've read that even mothers who adopt babies can have PPA/D. The crying of the babies triggers hormones in the mother. Interesting, no? Hormones. Those darn things.
6 stages of PPD/A (from postpartumprogress.com)
Post Traumatic Stress (worry that it will come back)
And grief..well it's grief. Does that really ever go away? I don't think so.
5 stages of grief
So I get to go through all of this...double. Nice.
Thankfully PPA and grief don't effect my everyday life, for the most part. I'm learning to handle things. Learning to talk and pray through. To share and open up because someone else might be able to relate.
This quote has also been a huge help since I found it.
"You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it" I know that my strength isn't always my own but God's.
How do you cope with anxiety and/or grief?
No I’m not a doctor. Yes I know everyone is different and some need/want meds. I just prefer a holistic approach for myself when possible. It may not be enough or what some people need. We are all different in how we approach things. If you feel you need to talk to someone please do so, whether it be a friend, relative, or Dr.